Psych! Facial!

Don't worry, sleeping through the night was a fluke and she made sure i
paid for it last night. Last night was rough. She was up most of the
night. I am still not sure what was wrong. I just tried three things
over and over again... feed, burp, change. repeated many times. I am
not sure which of those finally calmed her down but something worked
perhaps she just tired herself out from fussing. So next time that
happens i will still haveabsolutely NO CLUE what to do to fix it. Being a mom is a mystery to me.

Today is a big day, i am going to attempt to go find something to wear.
A little shopping. I am in the horrible in between maternity clothes
are 'huge in the waist but unfortunately still fit nicely around my
thighs and butt' stage. OIVAY! I need to get a girdle and try to create an illusion! liposuction is looking like a great thing right now. haha

Lets hope for a better night tonight!

WHAT A WONDERFUL NIGHT!

I think I must be the luckiest mother in the world. Addison slept through the night last night!!! Ryan and I are hoping it wasn't a mistake. I put her down at 11:30 and she didnt wake up till 7:30 and she could have layed there for a while longer but i was feeling some serious pain since i hadn't fed her during the night. She is an amazing baby.

I've been kicked out from under then wing.

I am flying solo now that the wing is gone. (Perhaps its more like falling than flying) Last night was a bit more difficult than usual. I don't really sleep anymore. And other than last night it isnt because she isnt sleeping. She actually sleeps really well. She sometimes even sleeps 6 hours straight. unfortunately i never sleep 6 hours straight! haha Oh well!
I am still adjusting to my mom not being here, i am not quite as comfortable. Fortunately all that babysitting and hanging out with my niece and nephews has paid off. Although it's funny how logical i can be when it's someone elses child, but when it comes to Addison i feel like that same logic won't work! its quite ridiculous of me.
It's one of my weirdest traits; the ability to know whats logical and just not capable to implement it.
We are still working on Harry Potter. We decided to read it as a family but its getting difficult to not read ahead when i am home alone.
*spoiler*
They are just killing everyone off one at a time. Well, the minor characters anyway.

Speaking of Harry Potter, we are going to read some more.

AND TRACY I UNDERSTAND... showering is for people who don't have kids. haha

Only 2 Days Left!

Today we went to the doctor for Addie for the jaundice check up. We don't have to do the lights!!! Hooray! She has also already gained 1 ounce. i guess baby's are suppose to gain thier birth weight back in two weeks and she has already gained an ounce... we all got a good laugh at that. Perhaps she will follow her cousins and be really chubby.
I can hardly believe its wednesday already. I am getting a little worried that my mom will be leaving soon. I know i can do it but its just scary. When she's here i know if anything goes wrong she can help me. I guess I can hope nothing goes wrong (sarcasm). (=

Last night went better. She woke up at 12,4 and 7 to eat but at 7 i gave her a pacifier and she went back to sleep till 8. I only got up a half dozen times to make sure she was still breathing and believe it or not thats an improvement. She has been sleeping in my room, something i swore i would never do. However we live in Student housing and the wall that seperates my room from Addison's is cinder block. I hate that i feel like i can't hear her. So i am pulling a tracy and she sleeps in her car seat in my room! haha When she gets a little bigger and I am less concerned about not being able to hear her i will move her back into her room. But since she has started sleeping in there I finally started sleeping. It has been wonderful!

My mom and dad are incredible! When my dad and mom got here he started helping me put my apartment together. He got us a lamp and started rearranging my whole living room. Then He and Ryan went to Lowe's and came back with all sorts of stuff. Then my mom took us to ikea and bought us this really great kitchen table and then ryan and her went and got a new cupboard for our kitchen. We have very little storage but with the help of Doug E. Fresh and LB Skeen we feel like we finally have a home. In fact mom has helped completly move addison's room around and it is really cute now! My mom and dad even went grocery shopping for us. I don't think Ryan and I have ever had a fridge so full(literally). It's so fantastic! It's been really fun getting organized.

Well, I am going to help mom start her blog!



If evolution really works, how come mothers only have two hands? ~Milton Berle

Addie is the cutest baby!

So Addison is officially 4 days old. She is the
cutest little munchkin! Although this is all very overwhelming. We have
had to take her to get her blood drawn twice since we were discharged
from the hospital onSaturday . Our doctor is concerned she has
jaundice. It just breaks my heart when they poke her little foot and
squeeze her foot to take the blood sample. I don't know how i will be
able to handle it, when she gets all her shots. That will be rough!

My mom keeps telling me that she is a really really good baby. She only
woke up twice last night to be fed. Although i am definitely
having a hard time with the sleeping at night. I check to make sure she
is still breathing about every hour. I get really anxious at night. I
am trying to start sleeping but i am sure it will take some time for me
to get more comfortable with having this tiny little baby.
Ryan
has been such an adorable dad. He always will be the first to change
her or burp her. He is also good about helping take care of me while i
heal.

I am really exhausted and haven't quite recovered from the 25 hours of
labor! That's right, 25 hours of labor. blah! They induced me on
Wednesday after i had gone to the doctor and they checked my blood
pressure and Dr.Loewen decided she couldn't let me go another hour with
my blood pressure rising like it was so she told me to leave my car and
call Ryan and head to the hospital to have the baby. It caught me off
guard and i started frantically calling my mom and Ryan
to let them now IT WAS TIME. My mom managed to get a flight out that
night and got to salt lake at midnight. Ryan managed to leave work and
get his shifts covered and come pick me up and take me to the hospital.
So they put me onpatosin around 5:00, I hadn't eaten anything all day
except for a piece of toast and an apple and i was hoping they would
let me eat something but they decided they just wanted to get me
started right away. So my first nurse was fine and she was following
doctors orders and getting me started, she came in every hour and
turned up mypatosin then the night nurse came... she pretty much did
NOTHING. The entire night she tried to get me to get my epidural so i
would just sleep. She never once turned up thepatosin but instead i lay ed
there all night having contractions and starving and my blood pressure
continued shooting up all night. She finally left and the morning shift
came in, this nurse was Margaret. She pretty much got me through my
labor. She took charge and found Dr.Loewen and brought her to my room. When Dr. Loewen
arrived she was very unhappy to find that they had been sitting on me
all night and that i hadn't even had my water broken yet. Apparently
the first nurse didn't leave my doctors orders and the night nurse
decided to not do ANYTHING rather than proactively find the doctors
orders. So anyways, they broke my water and turned up thepatosin and i
started feeling the hard labor. I finally decided to get my epidural. I
was extremely nervous for the EPIDURAL. But i wish someone would have
said that the contractions hurt ten million times more than getting the
epidural! It was AMAZING. Finally by 6:00 i was ready to push. Margaret
(the best nurse ever) started helping prepare me and got me to start
pushing and one push- nothing and the second push- the baby started to
crown! I only pushed for 25- 30 minutes. It was so amazing. She was the
most beautiful thing i had ever seen! they had been telling me that the
baby had tons of hair and she really does! A head full of hair. She was
7 pounds and 21 inches. She is a very long baby. I really can't believe
i have this beautiful little girl. It's still hard to comprehend that
she is mine. I feel so blessed to be trusted with her. And to have a
mom who wanted to be there and is staying with me and helping me. I
have one really great teacher! We are so excited for Addison to meet
all the rest of the family!


Well, i have to end this here, duty calls! She is ready to eat...

SHE'S HERE!

This really is the most amazing thing. By the end my epidural had started to wear off and i was really in pain but i swear the moment they laid her on my chest it didn't matter and i would have done it all again.

Addison Linda Spiers is 7 lbs and 21 inches (she's TALL and obviously that didn't come from my side of the family!) she was offically born on July 19th at 7:19pm

I am so in love with this little girl!

Dun. Dun. Dun.

So the baby drama continues.
after a few doctors appointments yesterday
I was admitted into the hospital
My blood pressure shot up to 160/110
After a few hours i was able to get it back down slightly.
I told them i was really not ready to be induced but i would do what i had to do
they decided to let me come back home.
however i am not allowed to get up, other than to use the bathroom.
So Ryan has moved to the TV in the bedroom for me and he has been stopping in every little while to bring me food.
I am desperately
trying to keep my blood pressure as low as possible although nothing
seems to be working. The only way to fix this is to just have the baby.
So as it stands they are still inducing me onFriday. That's really how
i would prefer it to go, then i know my mom and my doctor will be
there. But of course i will do whatever i need to do.

I am sure everything will be fine, its just so frustrating to feel so completely out of control.

AND BORED.

Happy friday the 13th!

I forgot to wish you all a Happy Friday the 13th!
I plan on watching tons of old scary movies tonight.
I love celebrating friday the 13th and i usually watch all the old nightmare on elm streets or poltergeists. it really just gives me a reason to watch lots of great zombie/ horror movies. ryan doesn't really like horror movies, he is more into chick flicks! haha we really are the most backwards couple. <3 but it's perfect for us!
I know that Tracy would just love to be hanging out with me tonight! (wimp!)
Unfortunately Ryan is working the graveyard shift tonight, so lets hope i don't go into labor this weekend. haha

My Harry Potter review.

So last night Ryan and I went to the drive in to see Harry Potter. We
love going to the drive in and do it as often as we can and decided
that was pretty much the exact same thing as bed rest. <3

So
Harry Potter... i was honestly not all that impressed. It felt like a
really choppy story line. Granted, the book was awfully long and they
never would have been able to fit all the story into the movie. However
so many of the important things that helped shape ourcharacters for
this part of the story and what is still coming was left out. It just
seemed like Harry was mad and without much reason. I also thought the
movie was too dark. Literally, not figuratively . I just wanted to turn
on a light or something. It just was a tad too dark for my liking. I
have no problem with it being dark in fact one of my favorite directors
is Tim Burton and ALL of his movies are dark like that but idon't know perhaps it was b/c i was at the drive in. BUT i did think the last fight scene with Dumbledore and Voldermort was the best part of the movie ( not as good as it was in the book but still) but i was bugged at how it seemed like Dumbledore just GAVE up. I did think Voldermort was awesome and i was so excited to see Helena Bonham
Carter! I love her, and think she is such an awesome actress. I really
enjoyed it all the same. It's just hard to compete with this
imagination of mine! ha.

How to start my own labor???

I have now finished New Moon. I can't believe how addicting these books
are. I never even read Harry Potter that fast. I am really looking
forward to the next book. The characters she creates are really
amazing. You become so enthralled with them. I enjoy that she doesn't
waste too much time explaining the scenery but creates a scene that it
just comes to life and my imagination does that rest. She is wonderful.


So
I am dying to hear what people think of Harry Potter. I think we are
going to see it tonight. I have to! If i don't see it now, i will never
get the chance!

So the latest update on the pregnancy:

My
blood pressure is just continually raising. Between my four doctors
appointment a week they are all confirming that it is progressively
getting higher. However, the baby is doing just fine! She doesn't like
to be bugged though. He HR skyrockets and then it takes at least 20
minutes to come back down after they check mydilation or buzz her. I have started to slowly dilate
and efface, so i am really hoping the induction wont be too bad. But i
have begun to eat spicy food and buy into all the old wives tales that
say they can start labor, b/c i would prefer to go into labor
naturally. But of course i will do whatever isnecessary to keep the baby and myself healthy. My mom had really high blood pressure with most of her pregnancies... so I think i am just following suit.

So a week from tomorrow!

Catch 22.

So my obsession with the Twilight book has now caused me to finish that
in two days and yesterday i had to ground myself from the second book
when i realized i had already read over 300 pages! Who would have
thought vampires could be so interesting? When i went to the hospital
yesterday for my testing i had my book and everyone in there was
commenting on it, apparently its the "new read".

Speaking of testing... my blood pressure is still high. However it came down a bit from last Thursday
from 160/101 to 140/96. Not a lot of progress but some. It IS really
high though so even though i am trying to not worry about it, i can't
seem to help distract myself from it. which probably just makes it
worse! ha!

So I have been working hard to clean our apartment
and have everything ready for the baby and ALL of the laundry done. I
scrubbed the bathroom down the other day. Changed the sheets on the bed
and flipped the mattress. Organized all the baby's drawers, so her
clothes areseparated into months. I just feel like i don't want to have any of this house work lingering over my head.

The contractions seem to be coming more often. I keep saying how ready i am
to have this baby and then i will have a contraction or two and i start
topanic and think perhaps i am not ready yet! Ryan thinks i have completely lost my mind.

I think my real motivation for wanting to have this baby is that my mom will get here and i wont be on bed rest anymore and i will have SOMEONE to talk to, other than you faithful reader.

Trying to cope!

So with the idea that there is only ONE MORE HARRY POTTER BOOK! i have
tried to figure out how to cope and my cousin Jaymee recommended
some books "Twilight" and "New Moon". Yesterday i started "Twilight"
(and i almost finished it!) i love it. It turns out the author of these
books graduated from BYU but i decided not to hold that against her (go Utes!). Now it might not sounds appealing and its definitely
not a book you can read to your small children but it's a great read.
She writes very fast paced and captures every moment very similar to J.K. Rowling. I highly recommend it!

Happy fourth of July!

Happy 4th of July!

Ryan and i invited his family to come down to our apartment and eat food and play games. That way i am at least home in an air conditioned place, so i don't swell up. I need to try not to over due it because I have to meet with Dr. Loewen and go to the hospital for non-stress tests again tomorrow.

I am really feeling like I am going to have this baby soon. It is the strangest thing, when I realize that I don't need to worry and that everything just falls into place. So we are hoping for next week. She is sitting so low its hard to do anything. However as ready as I am to not be pregnant anymore, I know I will really miss this. It really is incredible being able to have a child living inside my body. But I think I am ready to have my body back (well as much as I can get back!).

Well, it's time to make some food for tonight and clean up! Have a wonderful 4th of July!

Here we are!

Well, we have decided to jump on the bandwagon and get a blog! I have actual had an online journal (similar to a blog) since January of 2002. But I enjoy having something a little less personal and something I can share.

We have some exciting things going on right now... I am actually 36 weeks pregnant with our little Addison. Up until about 2 weeks ago everything had been really easy with no concerns. Unfortunately, I am now on bed rest with pregnancy induced hypertension and bored out of my mind! Yesterday I was able to get a blessing from Ryan before I headed off to my Monday doctors appointments. We went in at 8:30 to get my blood work done and then headed upstairs to get my blood pressure taken and it was an alarming 140/100 but by the time they measured my stomach and checked the placement of the baby, it went down to 140/90 (which is just barely high). We were then off to the hospital to do baby non-stress tests and when they took my blood pressure again it had gone down even more 130/80 (which is the lowest it has been in weeks). After an hour of monitoring the baby they had good news for us... she seems to be completely normal! So, I head back in on Thursday to do it all again! Every Monday and Thursday until Addison decides shes ready to join us (or the decide they need to induce me).

So that was an exciting turn of events.

We are still setting up Addison's room and gathering the last few things we need. Speaking of which I need to get back to work...

We'll keep you posted.





a picture of my little Addison- she has that fist up and she's getting ready to give em' hell just like her mom!